Book II, Chapter I
H the Shadow
RED
1.
Fact
must come to every man with
laboring heart, full of dread,
transfixed
by fire and things partly
guessed, a world of pain
and cruelty, a vow to slay
father and yield to passion.
2.
But M found this bond less
obvious.
M, student under St. Or,
compelled by some error
lodged in the house of his
father.
Mischance affected
him whenever it pleased
God.
3.
In the year after St. Or’s
death, he had
done little.
If he had
a hobby it was collecting
birds. Every species
he stuffed and kept,
his wool shirt stained
and ragged with blood.
4.
He began
to visit Government House,
with the governor
giving names
to the glens, the chasm,
the isle, and the great sea.
Nature
may be trifled with, but not
the governor’s smile.
5.
They trooped over the lands,
free
to marry.
Old Adam
could not gainsay them, so
all that remained
to him was the grudge.
What was the good of money
if he might not lay gamecocks?
6.
A bad season had come.
The herring
suffered, and the meal bag
across the shoulders of
Government House had less
than half a boat. But
what the governor had he gave
to the poor and the idle
alike.
7.
If he threw away his
substance
with eyes open, he felt
his whole body silently
measure its weight.
It was winter,
and a goose was hung
in the outhouse to drain
before being plucked.
8.
The goose, its disappearance
placidly smoking
and innocent,
said, “You have to be content
with mountains.”
The governor had loosened
the ties
which held
the island to the diocese.
9.
Bishop Sen reached him
to stay
execution. “The island,”
he wrote, “is my business.”
The governor
answered, “I have the right
to fling down a brace of
pheasants
without speaking to anyone.”
10.
It seemed to fill the whole
world with a new light.
Evil
Adam said, “Try the milk,”
and Bishop Sen pushed his
hot face into him.
At that insult, the governor
clapped his pistol.
11.
“Och,” he said, and
seeing how near the knife
had come
to the heart, only laughed.
He would take the hand
and stitch it down. “Aren’t
you proud of yourself?”
He was not angry.
12.
A fool doesn’t know which
side his bread is buttered.
The patronage
of the bishop was the one
tangible
item of interest for Adam.
To the governor, it was
to dispose
of the vain jack.
13.
A black thundercloud
sat in the room. M walked
into the paved yard and
heard the laughter of
the auctioneer. The house felt
empty as a pile of silver,
he reckoned.
His way of showing sympathy.